Hey everyone! Remember me? Probably not. It's been a very long time since I posted anything on here so you may well be wondering who's this crazy chic and when did I start watching her. Which is fine, because I'm really only here now to ramble for the sake of my own sanity anyway. That and I really would like to wish you all a Very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

My Christmas has been an awesome time with family. Also, my best friends who moved away last year are home for Christmas and I've had the opportunity to spend a fair bit of time with them which is also awesome, despite the fact that it leaves me operating on very little sleep. At that point, and not entirely unrelated, the awesomeness ends and morphs into some really bizarre and confusing feelings that are likely contributing far more to the lack of sleep than the very late nights (or early mornings) I've been keeping.

While part of me would like to explain the whole bizarre thing right out in the open despite the very public nature of this website, the more reserved part of me knows that would be very unwise on so many levels. The more reserved part of me wins out, so I apologize for the teaser that will probably never be explained.

And on that note, I think I'll end this journal which is perhaps bizarre in its own right, with the words of a song that I wrote a couple of years back which seems to have even more relevance in my life now than it did when I first wrote it. Music has always played a very important role in my life and helped to carry me through some of the lowest points of my personal journey. None the less, I have to admit that I find it rather odd that I song that I wrote myself concerning a very different situation turns out to be even more relevant in my current and completely unforeseen situation. Anyway, without further ado, here it is:

Where Do I Go From Here?

I woke up one morning and I looked in the mirror
I couldn't see past the nose on my face
This is not who I wanted to be
It's not what I had in my dreams
How do I get where I know I should be?
Where do I go from here?

Teach me to look, beyond what I see
Teach me to see through Your eyes
Teach me to listen to what I can't hear
Open my ears to Your voice

Cause I can't enjoy the ride
With my focus over there
All I need is you by my side
Lord won't you come be my guide?
Tell me where do I go?
Where do I go?
Where do I go?
Where do I go from here?

I thought I had my life figured out
This is not how I had it all planned
When will the pieces all seem to fit?
When will it start to make sense?
How do I get from this desolate place?
Where do I go from here?

Teach me to look, beyond what I see
Teach me to see through Your eyes
Teach me to listen to what I can't hear
Open my ears to Your voice

Cause I can't enjoy the ride
With my focus over there
All I need is you by my side
Lord won't you come be my guide?
Tell me where do I go?
Where do I go?
Where do I go?
Where do I go from here?

From the side of the road, distraction calls out to me
My ear has been tuned to its song
Somewhere Your voice is calling my name
But the noise all around is so loud
It's been drowning you out
And leaving me dazed
I know You're there
But I can't seem to hear
Where do I go from here?

Teach me to look, beyond what I see
Teach me to see through Your eyes
Teach me to listen to what I can't hear
Open my ears to Your voice

Cause I can't enjoy the ride
With my focus over there
All I need is you by my side
Lord won't you come be my guide?
Tell me where do I go?
Where do I go?
Where do I go?
Where do I go from here?